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A Creation Myth  

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In the Beginning was the Void and in the void was Deity, unnamed and unknowable, alone in endless darkness. After millenia in the Void, Deity(1) chose to experience more than the trackless Void and created the Multiverse(2). Stars wheeled within galactic clusters, accompanied by nebulae, lit by quasars. Deity split into myriad spiritual consciousnesses and inhabited all these forms as they danced, lived and ultimately died.

When Deity had learned all it could from these forms, it kindled biological life(3). Bacteria, amoeba, virii all found niches on planets and spiritual habitation by Deity as it continued on its journey to learn all it could. Sooner than before, Deity exhausted the possibilities of these forms, too, and introduced a new idea into the multiverse: Gender. With this, Deity itself split into two(4) to better maintain the balance, male and female - God and Goddess. And still Deity inhabits everything.

The stars continue on their journey through the Void, amoeba divide and live everywhere, male and female we live and learn and die and are born, pieces of the God and Goddess, until there is no more for us to know.
  1. I believe that Deity wished to learn more than it had before but why it might want to do so escapes me.
  2. I use the word Multiverse because who knows what else is out there?
  3. I have no idea how often or where life might have begun. It's immaterial to the myth and of no practical use in my life. Aliens would be too cool, though.
  4. If there are aliens, who knows how many genders might have been created. Always keep an open mind.
Stan asked why I thought sorrow and pain might exist, what purpose would they serve if not to facilitate free choice. This is my answer. they exist for the same reason the color black does and for the reason that I exist, and for the reasons trees exist - because that's part and parcel of the reality we experience. Deity didn't make these things except in the same general way Deity made the universe and everything in it. No God is going to purposefully inflict suffering on it's followers although a Universe with a vacuum is going to have consequences as will gravity and heat and anything else that causes us pain and suffering as well as joy and delight.

These things were not created for any purpose but rather are the natural extension of the laws of reality and existence. Fall down the stairs, you'll break a leg and maybe your neck. Enter the lottery, and you have a chance to win. Much pain and suffering are the results of our actions as a race and something we inflict on each other, something we are responsible for - not something we can just wave a wand and say "Oh, it's all Satan's fault or it's all God's plan. We don't have to feel responsible."

We are responsible and I think until we learn as a whole species how to stop doing this to ourselves and each other, we're going to keep living and dying and being born. Yes, that puts "Judgement Day" (or whatever you want to call the beginning of the next phase of existence) very far in the future but if you study history there is hope. We call ourselves enlightened compared to people who lived in medieval times for a reason. We have learned from our mistakes, sometimes not well and sometimes we backslide but overall we keep going forward.

A good example of this is racism. It was not long ago that people thought it fact that those of color were genetically inferior to Caucasians. They very sincerely believe there was some scientific explanation for their superiority. We've learned better and while there are still those who don't yet believe, they are getting to be far fewer and in between than even 100 years ago. We are learning and each of us can individually hasten that day forward by continuing to learn and grow and inflict just a little less pain on our fellow human beings.

Learning to Listen  

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Source: WikipediaFirst, a disclaimer, the word "God" in this post refers to Jehovah, Anubis, Queztalcoatl, Bridget, Dianna and any other Deity who's name you choose to plug in. God is easier to type, so that's what I used.

I have a list of comics I read every day, like many people I know who spend significant amounts of time online and this morning today's issue of Sinfest just got to me. Mormons have this saying about listening to the "small, still voice" within you. Pagans have something very similar, although we don't name it anything. Catholics also try to listen for the "voice of God". It seems to be a common theme. Why do we need to hear the message that we should learn to listen so often from so many disparate directions? Are we really so deaf or is God just not talking?

I remember the day my first son was born. God talked to me pretty loudly that day but it wasn't in English. I took one look at that newborn child and knew, knew God existed in some form. I was looking at a waterfall as a teenager just overwhelmed at the power and ferocity inherent in the torrent coming down from the cliffs and it hit me! The world is too awesome to be coincidence or an accident. I met Phil and knew God loved me, in ways I'd never considered before this time.

God isn't just talking, God is shouting. But like Slick in Sinfest, most of us just don't want to hear it and while we tell ourselves we do, we're pretty good at self-delusions. We get tired, or busy, or bored and we stop hearing. But there are often signs God is trying to get through our thick skulls. Josh from Part of the Process posted something by Rick Warren that describes it well,
When God wants to change us, he starts by getting our attention, by putting us in a frustrating situation that is totally beyond our control. If we’re experiencing a crisis right now, it’s because God is getting ready to change us for the better.
I have to admit, my life recently has just been crazy. The other day I got so angry at an ongoing situation, I threw a chair through a window. I guess it's time I sat down and talked to God, one on one, and looked around to see what he's trying to tell me. I just wish he'd learn to be bilingual.

How I got Wicca  

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Flipperox asked me what got me involved in Wicca,

I am curious as to the path that led you to wicca. I know the starting point ... and your current beliefs but what was your motivation???
Many pagans, and I can't say I was much different, start out in Christianity, usually being raised in one variety or another. As they grow older, they begin to ask questions and often aren't satisfied with the answers. Christianity makes no sense to them, for one reason or another.

In my case, I cannot and probably never will accept the concepts of ultimate good or ultimate evil as active forces in the universe. Ultimate good could well have given us free choice, without suffering or evil; ultimate evil usually isn't evil at all when examined from its own point of view. I call myself a Gray Witch because good and evil are only an infinite variety of shades of gray.

Satan, a God of Evil  

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Stan asked some very good questions in “How Gods work in Wicca” which I’m going to answer here. The first one I’ll answer is “I see you mention a belief in Satan as well, so what do you believe about him?” First, I don’t believe that Christianity is monotheistic. That principle is very important to the rest of this post. It has a pantheon consisting in the very least of Jehovah the Father, Christ the Son, the Holy Spirit and Satan. Depending on what flavor you’re looking at you can add any number of angels, saints, Mary, etc.

This is based on how “dead” religions are viewed by anthropologists. There were faiths very similar to Christianity, with a “supreme god” and a family of lesser gods around them but no one now calls them monotheistic, although the followers then did so. See this site for details. In all other faiths, the son of God was a God just not the Supreme God.

All that said, I believe in Satan as a God of Evil. I believe Satan is wrong and wants to harm us. I believe he works in direct cross purposes to Jehovah the Father. I believe he’ll use every means at his command to do so as well.

Stan continues, “As I believe that Satan is out to destroy mankind, creating false gods and setting them up to be worshiped strikes me as a very logical thing to do.” And I agree this is very possible and leads right into “The question, then–when one presupposes a belief in a belligerent devil with great skill at deception–is how does one determine which faces and facets of Deity are correct and trustworthy?” Anyone in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints already knows the answer to this, you pray. You ask, you listen, you evaluate the effects on your life, and heath and soul and you keep on praying.

How God Works in Wicca, Part 2  

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Stan commented on “How God works in Wicca” with the question, “.. what do you think of the idea of a separation God and Goddess, in the sense of “King and Queen,” (a.k.a “The Crown”) where they’re both acting as a single, governing entity, and yet are two, distinct individuals?”

I’m sure that’s very much what happens. I do not think they work to cross purposes at all. An example of this in Wicca is the Wheel of the Year, the Wiccan liturgical calendar, a celebration of the life of the Gods, male and female, and how they compliment each other and work together. One person might relate better to the female aspect and work with it more, where another like myself might do the same with the male aspect but both are generally acknowledged and celebrated and considered equal in power.

They do generally have different attributes and “kingdoms” if you will. Men and women are quite different in general, and the Duality celebrates and finds joy in these differences. The male aspect is generally more celebrated in summer, the female in winter, the male is usually associated with the sun, the female the moon, etc. There are exceptions to this in individual worship but Wicca is nothing if not a highly individualistic faith, which is part of what makes it so challenging.

How God Works in Wicca  

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Darius099 commented on Deity Concepts, “Creating your own religion? I mean… what for? Seems silly, childish, and altogether not what faith is about to just go and make up something to worship.” If that’s what I was doing, I’d agree completely so let me explain.

First, and foremost, I’m Wiccan and follow one over-riding rule no matter what I do, which practices I choose, how I go about doing things and that is: “An it harm none, do as you will.” This has been the Rede for over a hundred years now and tends to be what defines a Wiccan as a Wiccan.

The second important concept is that most Wiccans believe the God and Goddess are one God and Goddess with many faces and aspects. Some take it farther and say there is one Source to whom the Duality themselves are just different faces. The idea here is that Deity speaks to us in languages we can understand and relate to and so the “face” of Deity changes. Deity itself has no name, no face, is not truly knowable but humans cannot relate to that very well, thus the belief is that it used aspects to interact with humanity.

Once you accept that concept, you move onto “All gods are true.” because all gods are just a different face of the God and Goddess. For me, this includes the Christian gods of Jehovah and Satan and Christ but many Wiccans don’t take it that far and exclude the currently popular pantheon from the aspects of Deity they’re willing to relate to in any way. To be fair to them, many have bitter and unhappy experiences involving Christianity and wouldn’t relate to these aspects well without alot of negative subconscious baggage anyhow.

If all gods are true, then any god I can relate to is the God I can worship, as they’re all same God anyhow. This also holds true for Goddess, obviously. Therefore, choosing which “face” I’m going to use is of great importance as I need to be honest enough with myself and know myself well enough, to be able to choose “faces” of the God that will work for me.

Easter, Ostara - A Comparison  

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Well, I’m sure you haven’t escaped the fact that today is Easter Sunday. But you’re probably clueless to the celebration of Ostara this last week on March 20, the Spring Equinox.

The date of Easter is recalculated every year based on a formula devised by the Catholic Church relevant to the Jewish calendar and the date of Passover. It’s based on the timing of a real world event and our best guess as to its date in history. Ostara is always the Spring Equinox, one of two days of the year (the other being in autumn) where day and night are of equal length.

Easter is a celebration of hope and joy, a day when Christians honor the sacrifice made by Christ that allows them to strive to attain Heaven. In Christian mythology, Heaven wasn’t obtainable after death before this point, just a time of limbo or waiting - it really depends on what sect of Christianity you’re referring to as some think the dead still wait in various states.

Ostara is a celebration of hope and joy, a day when Pagans honor the Gods for continuing the cycle of life that allows them to strive to attain happiness. In many pagan mythologies, although by no means all, the world was in a state of dormancy up to this point and now re-awakens to life and fruitfulness.

They have alot more in common than many in either religion want to acknowledge. There are Christians, Jehovah’s Witnesses being a great example of this, who do see the comparisons but instead of enjoying the similarities and working for understanding, they take the celebration out of the holiday in question, along with a great deal of its joy and happiness. Holidays as celebrated by Jehovah’s Witnesses might well be sacred affairs, but they’re often boring as well. Their choice, I suppose, but I think in many ways they miss the point.

The author of the Book of Mormon project said, “What does it mean to be a Christian? A basic definition is one who follows a Christ-like life. Christ has taught to love one another as I have loved you.” Further emphasizing differences is not an expression of love and caring. So I’m going to ask the Christians who read this site, and there have been a few this week, think about this today. Think about the religions you dislike the most, not just the ones you don’t agree with and ask yourself, “What do we have in common and how can I foster greater understanding and love between myself and the followers of that faith?”

I challenge pagans to do the same, in the spirit of the idea that Ostara is a time of new beginnings and hope and we could all of us use a little more love and light in our lives.

Dragon Magic - A Creation  

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I just finished reading a good starter book, Silver Ravenwolf’s “To Ride a Silver Broomstick”. Not a bad book but definitely a beginner’s tool, it was a good refresher course. But it’s time to move on to something more advanced.


Since I can’t find a coven, “Living Wicca” by Scott Cunningham seems to be a good choice. In this book is a whole section on creating your own tradition. I could probably do this without the book but it never hurts to use it and cover all the bases.

One thing that has drawn me for years is Dragons. I’ve been involved with them by owning figurines, being an active member of an online fan group, editing and publishing a newsletter for that same group. So it makes sense that dragons and dragon magick should be a huge part of anything I do ritually. And it’s definitely going to be the western variety of dragon. Celtic dragons just don’t do it for me. I’ll probably work Chinese dragons in somewhere, but as Elder advisors perhaps, not real totems of power. Their wisdom is undeniable but they don’t thrum many of my subconscious mental strings.

I already use dragons as elemental guardians when circle casting. Water, earth, air and fire dragons all guard my watchtowers every ritual now. It’s not that large a step to include them more and seek doing more work with them in other ways as well.

For God/Goddess archtypes… I don’t know. I’ve followed Anubis so long, had him looking over my shoulder, challenging me to grow, that I don’t know if I’ll change that at all.

Note to self: this is a great site for dragon art. Print it out, color it, paint it, do something with it.

Gems in the Rough  

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I was reading an article today by Wendy Ellison where she said, “What if we wore labels like that? We are like fabric, cut from the same cloth, God’s children, created in His image. And yet we are different, part of His grand design. We all have traits that make us unique—complete with physical attributes that we might perceive as flaws. Upon closer examination, perhaps it is those distinctive qualities that make us who we are.” And it made me wonder, is this really true?

If the flaws in a person make that person even better, more distinctive, more… them, then why do organizations shun people? She is only referring to physical beauty but I think ti applies to alot more than just outward appearance. Get any five people together and there’s a better than even chance that any two of them won’t get along. They’ll get along just fine with everyone else, just not with each other. Does that make them flawed? No, of course not.

She goes on to say, “We can all recognize beauty in diversity and accept ourselves and others as we understand that our differences make life more interesting and only add to the richness and texture of God’s fabric canvas.”

I completely agree. While there are always going to be people I don’t get along with, things that people do that I dislike, I do my best to get past it, continue to socialize with them, find some ground on which we can meet as colleagues, if not friends. If I can to this effort reach out as an individual, why don’t more organizations do it as groups? Why excommunicate? Do they really fear “contamination” so much? I doubt it.

I think there’s a deeper reason I just haven’t figured out yet. But I will!


Why did God create People?  

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A friend wrote something very depressing a few years ago. “Why the hell did God make us? If He created us, why didn’t He make us perfect? If He is all-knowing and all-perfect, He could have created us perfect. But we failed. …And now we suffer for it.” But she seems to have forgotten, her life seems to have been difficult at the time, we also laugh and dance for it. A poem I wrote a long time ago seems to fit this:


a theif, a prostitute
a wife, a mother
a drug addict

a student, a game player
a friend, a counselor
an enemy

a suicide, a housekeeper
a slacker, a cashier
a jilted lover

an angel
in the care of a saint
I believe, really BELIEVE, God is People. That Gods made people to have bodies to divide into in order to experience life in all its glorious, fun, amazing forms. But God created Starfish and plants. Yes, God experienced life there, too. One day I need to make a post about my idea of Creation.

Anubis, God of Challenge  

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Feel free to search on Google or Wikipedia for information on this god. I certainly can’t put it all here.

Anubis, first and foremost, judged the Dead. He was what they faced as they dealt with the challenge of entering Heaven. Some people call him God of the Dead for his role in embalming but Osiris is more correctly the God of the Dead and in some stories Thoth was the one to teach Isis how to embalm her dead husband. But no other God challenged the Dead with their acts during life.

It was a hard thing to deal with for anyone. You failed if your heart was either heavier or lighter than the Feather of Ma’at but in some funeral paintings, Anubis is seen holding the chain of the scales. This infers he could influence the outcome. There is no text saying he could do this, however, so to what end he might do it is left as a lesson to us.

The Goddess in the Church of Jesus Christ, of Latter-Day Saints  

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There a nifty forum out there with a really interesting mix of people. In one of the posts, I found a link to this about the Heavenly Mother. I had some thoughts of my own about what she had to say. But the first thing I want to say, is I certainly support her wish to be Anonymous. Enough people over-react to what they don’t understand that her fears are certainly understandable.

The author comments,
I suppose there is a fear that if women in the church pray to a non-descript goddess figure she will inevitably develop into something less than perfect and virtuous.
That might be a real concern but given how many gods there are out there, how many imperfect male figures in theology (Zeus, anyone?) that this could easily be overcome in much the same way that is dealt with. An example is the Virgin Mary in the Catholic Church. Many women from many walks of life and backgrounds revere this figure.

The real reason I think the LDS Church avoids this? To avoid being labeled any more non-Christian than they already are. Add a second godhood and all of a sudden, you’re not monotheistic any more. They already deal with that to some extent. I hate it for fundamentalist Christians, but Christianity is already not monotheistic. If anthropologists a thousand years from now were studying it, it would have demigods and even a God of Evil. These would be less powerful than it’s main squeeze, Jehovah, but then Zeus, a very familiar pagan figure, is more powerful than Hermes. Hermes is still labeled a God.

So if you add Heavenly Mother to Heavenly Father at Church services, you open a whole new can of worms for a faith not really prepared to deal with this in addition to all it’s other headaches.

While this is understandable, it’s also a serious disservice to the Sisters of the congregation. She writes,
Yet another time I knelt down by my bed in the middle of the day pleading to my Father in Heaven for help as a wife and mother, feeling much overwhelmed and unsure of myself. This time I felt the love of not only my Father in Heaven, of a Mother in Heaven. I felt her love, support, wisdom and understanding as a mother who desired to give her daughter, me, all that she had to assist me with my own earthly family.
Would that we all had that available to us more openly! I really feel Sisters need that love and support and too many feel it is denied to them. She continues, “When I talk to a parent about childbirth, infertility or breastfeeding, and even potty training, I talk to my mother, not my father. Likewise when I want to pray about the most mortal-physical aspects of being a woman, I prefer to address someone in whose image I am created, and clearly, this is not the image of a man.”

I hope the Church one day finds the courage to listen to Heavenly Father and reveal more about our Mother in Heaven and to allow those of us who need her to get to know her better.

Principles of Belief  

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Adapted from the American Council of Witches.


  • I practice rites to attune myself with the natural rhythm of life forces marked by the phases of the Moon and the seasonal Quarters and Cross Quarters.
  • I recognize that my intelligence gives me a unique responsibility towards my environment. I seek to live in harmony with Nature.
  • I acknowledge a depth of power far greater than that apparent to the average person. Because it is far greater than ordinary it is sometimes called “supernatural”, but I see it as lying within that which is naturally potential to all.
  • I conceive of Diety as manifesting through polarity, as masculine and feminine, and that Diety is all people, and functions through the interaction of the masculine and feminine. I value neither above the other, knowing each to be supportive of the other.
  • I recognize both outer and inner, or psychological, worlds — sometimes known as the Spiritual World, the Collective Unconscious, Inner Planes, etc. — and I see in the interaction of these two dimensions the basis for paranormal phenomena and magickal exercises.
  • I do not recognize any authoritarian hierarchy outside that agreed on in agiven Coven, but do honor those who teach, respect those who share their greater knowledge and wisdom, and acknowledge those who have courageously given of themselves in leadership.
  • I see religion, magick and wisdom-in-living as being united in the way one views the world and lives within it — a world view and philosophy of life which we identify as Wicca.
  • Calling oneself “Wiccan” does not make a Witch — but neither does heredity itself, nor the collecting of titles, degrees and initiations. A Wiccan seeks to control the forces within her/himself that make life possible in order to live wisely and well without harm to others.
  • I believe in the affirmation and fulfillment of life in a continuation of evolution and development of consciousness, that gives meaning to the Universe, and my personal role within it.
  • As a Wiccan, I am not threatened by debates on the history of the Craft, the origins of various terms, the origins of various aspects of different traditions. I am concerned with my present and future.
  • I do not accept the concept of absolute evil, nor do I worship any entity known as “Satan” or “the Devil”, as defined by Christian tradition. I do not seek power through the suffering of others. Tags: beliefs, ideas, principles.